Were you there?

That spring, with me
warm and close
in the morning's dewey light?

Do you remember?
We held each other's hands,
paints; the yellows and the greens
calling to your hummingbird

Maybe I wished for you
like wishes for a feather
a wish to soothe the loneliness
to heal a hurting heart

But yes, it's just like me
I can't seem to remember
shouldn't be so easy to forget
but I swear, I held your hand,
I felt your love

Could it have been you?
on that hot summer night
when we held each other's hands
and shared each other's dreams?

When the cicadas and the fireflies
were music in our ears
when we were all alone
when we lit the night with electric blue

And wasn't that your golden summer skin?
and your crazy, summer-scented hair?

Maybe I wished for you
like wishes for a feather
a wish to soothe the loneliness
to heal a hurting heart

But yes, it's just like me
I can't seem to remember
shouldn't be so easy to forget
but I swear, I held your hand,
I felt your love

Maybe you were never laughing
never picking autumn apples
never breathing in my ear
never singing, never laughing at my jokes
never dancing in the corn

Maybe I didn't see you
in your gypsy dress
at our lakeside summer market
awash among the sunflowers
in your precious September sun

And maybe you never drove with me
hair swirling in the summer breeze
on that sweet Ventura Highway
holding hands
and stealing kisses at the lights

Or perhaps we rode my Vespa
in a Red Arrow dream
on a Red Arrow road,
on a trip to find love's longing

If only life's conscious soul connections
of dreams rare and real and true
of sweetness searched for over lifetimes
wouldn't disappear in dawn's pink light

But of this I know
my misty bohemian dream
that wishes and hopes can be entangled
in the quantum links of soul

And so before the dawn can steal them
I hold on to these moments
to our springs and to our summers
to the sunflowers and to your summer dresses

And mostly, to the Bohemian of my dreams
to the simplicity of love
to you

And I always watch
for your hummingbird

For RR

#healing

Sweet Ventura Highway

The hurts that heal